Where do I get my ideas?!

When people find out that I am a writer, it’s often the same questions I hear… You mean you write stories? Can I actually buy your books? Can I be in one of your books? I’d love to write a story; how do you find the time? – As a writer, we’ve heard them all, you may have even been guilty of asking one or two of them before, but my personal favourite is still; Where do you get your ideas?

Now it can't be the same for us all, for the simple reason that everyone is inspired differently. I’m also not sure that how a person is inspired equals where their ideas come from. For example, I often feel inspired when I'm out and about in the fresh air, surrounded by nature; I feel like I want to sit down and write. But I don’t necessarily know what to write about. Therefore, I don’t believe that my ideas come from nature. If I'm totally honest, I'm not actually sure where my ideas come from, only that they tend to come to me at inappropriate times – like when I'm at work, or trying to fall asleep. I have a notebook and pen by my bed for such occasions, and have numerous notes on my phone where I've jotted down ideas when I'm out shopping etc. If I had to pin down where I got my ideas from, I'd say that they're made up from things I've seen and heard around me, whether that be real life experiences or things I've read and watched. I pull little things from different places to make up a new idea that is my own.

The part I do know, is that all my stories have started out as a character. It’s the characters that speak to me. The characters that I create and start to write about, before they find their story. The four Hidden World Novels all started out that way. In some cases, I didn’t even know who they were going to be. Anna-Marie from The Love That Binds Us, started out as a first-person piece about standing in the corner of the room and having no one notice you. About feeling like you were invisible to the people around you. At the time of writing the piece, it felt very lonely and kinda depressing, yet when her story developed, it became clear that the reason that no one was noticing her was because she was a ghost. If you’ve read The Love That Binds Us then this will be making more sense to you than those of you who haven’t. But stripped back, the story is about twin girls who are ripped apart when one of them dies, and follows their journey to reconnecting with each other across the dimensions of the world, hence the ghost!

I’m not a huge planner when it comes to writing, I'm what is known to the writing community as a ‘pantser’ – someone who ‘flies by the seat of their pants’ – I tend to have a very basic idea in my head of where the story is going, and then I start writing and let my characters guide me. By the time I am ready to start writing their story, they have been talking to me for some time, and I know who they are, so writing them is easy for me. There are often several pieces of the story already written from musings about the character, and then I piece them together and make a story. I don’t write chronologically, which can be a pain when it gets around to the first edits, as there are often gaping plot holes, but it means that I don’t very often end up with writer’s block.

I have a relaxed way of writing where I try not to put too much pressure on myself, which means that I rarely suffer with periods of times when I can't write anything. On the days where I don’t feel inspired, or can't seem to find the words, I simply do something else. I take a break, maybe do something related, like edit another piece, or connect on social media, or even get out of the house completely and go on an adventure. Then when I get back, I feel fresh and ready to write. I think the longest I have gone without writing since deciding to make something of my stories is a couple of days!

But anyway, back to my ideas… When I talk to family about my ideas, they all remember one in particular! Back in my university days when I was studying English Literature, I took a course in Creative Writing, which of course was my favourite, but even that had its moments when I found the class a little dull. This one particular day, it was because we were learning about how to write a script, and script writing just wasn’t my thing; still isn’t. I digress, while listening, I was doodling on the back of a worksheet, and ended up writing this short passage.

Most little girls, when tucked up in bed at night, dream of princesses, ponies and everything pink. Serena however, was no ordinary little girl, her dreams were much darker, more dangerous and full of an excitement that little girls shouldn’t understand.

This passage went on to inspire my first full length written novel, one that will be a five-book series when I am through with it. Though currently unpublished, the first of The Cursed Novels, will make its appearance in summer 2019, and I plan to bring it in with a bang.

The same goes every time though – it always starts with the character. Anna-Marie and then her sister, Lily. Luna as a mermaid wanting to spend her time on land rather than in the water. Izzy being bitten and having to survive in a world she’d thought was all fictional as she becomes a werewolf. Eloise discovering that she is as a witch, and that her mother had been one too. The others that I have in the bank awaiting their time; Nel, a vampire, Lara the human detective that ends up wrapped up in their world, Slayer, Jason, Tucker, Kelly the Valkyrie. The list goes on. Some of them have stories attached to them that are just waiting to be written. Some of them are still floating around as ideas. And then amongst them is one that is different from all the rest. I have one that is a story without a character yet. I know who she needs to be – but she hasn’t spoken to me yet!

So, when I am asked where I get my ideas from, my most common answer is ‘Where don’t I get it from.’ But my favourite answer, for those people that I know well enough to understand my sense of humour, is that the voices tell them to me! Let’s hope that none of them ever call the men in white coats to come and get me…

Check out my original post which was featured as a guest blog post here!

My reading journey...

Since the release of Lucy Mangan's book earlier this year, Bookworm; A Memoir of Childhood Reading, (Which is still on my to-read list as I am keeping my fingers crossed for a paperback version) there has been a lot of talk amongst readers, and particularly the booksellers, about where our reading journey's started. What books do we remember reading as children? Which books do we still have copies of from when we were little? Which books really made us fall in love with reading?

A fellow bookseller recently wrote about her journey on her blog Of Life and Literature, which you can check out by following the link, and it got me thinking, and I mean really thinking about my own journey and the books I remember. So, here it is in black and white, and several colourful pictures!

I started this post by heading on up to my bookshelves to find the titles I had been thinking about and start snapping some photos. Along the way I discovered several other books that I hadn't thought about, but that I knew had to be included in this post, so bear with me! The first books I headed for were the ones that I knew I still had from when I was a child. There are only two of them, many of the others are replacements, but I never could bear to be parted from these two!

Both Walker books, The Elephant Tree by Penny Dale, and When I was Little by Marcia Williams have been on my bookshelf for longer than I can remember, and I have memories of reading them as a little girl. Daddy was known for reading the bedtime stories, but it is my mom I remember reading these with me! They even have my name in the front of them on the little space saying who they belong to...

But anyway, I think that my journey began where every 90's child's began; with Disney stories and a little rabbit named Peter! 

I always loved the Disney Princess stories, amongst the many others going, and have a small selection on the bookshelf at home now, though they are not my originals - they've been bought over the years when I've seen them. Simba however, has been with me nearly my whole life!! No guesses needed as to which is my favourite?! As for Peter Rabbit, I had the collection, and still do, though they too are replacements. I bought the box set not long ago to put on the shelf as I decided it was one of those things that every reader should have a copy of! Although never really going out of fashion, Peter Rabbit has recently made his comeback with the new film and children are falling in love with him all over again - talk about how to go down in history!!

I followed the normal pattern from there too I think, quickly devouring the fairy tales, working my way through the colour bands at school until I made my way to the free reading shelves, and the one I remember from then was The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett. We did a whole topic on the story at school, where we designed our own gardens and made our own secret keys and wrote our own pieces about discovering a hidden paradise. I loved it, and have just discovered that I do not own a copy - something that will be rectified shortly! I also discovered Ella Enchanted by Gail Carson Levine and Tuck Everlasting by Natalie Babbitt, both of which I saw as films and hunted down the books as soon as I found out they were adaptions! This was about the time that I fell down the rabbit hole with Alice too, and remains one of my all time favourites to this day. You can always tell your favourites - scan your bookshelf and look for the books that you have multiple copies of!

As I got older, reaching secondary school and becoming a teenager, I discovered Harry Potter like everyone else and fell in love with reading all over again! Didn't we all?! I loved Hermione from her first appearance, and found myself comparing my own attributes to hers. By the end of high school I hit a dry spell with reading, one which was broken by attending university, but the books I was reading were course specified, and not ones I particularly enjoyed. I was nineteen when I fell back into the love of reading, and I am not ashamed to say that it was a sparkly vampire and a hot werewolf that got me there. My sister and my mom had read Twilight by Stephenie Meyer, and lent me a copy to read - I devoured it! Along with the rest of the series; Breaking Dawn is still one of my records: cover to cover in just over twenty-four hours!

From there I went searching for books that intrigued me, and I have these ladies to thank for their stories! 

The Shiver, Linger, Forever trilogy by Maggie Stiefvater was the first I found, and I fell in love with Sam and Grace and the way Stiefvater writes! Lauren Kate's Fallen series was next and I fought alongside Luce and Daniel all the way, hoping and praying that they would get their happy ending! And last but not least, Patch stole my heart when I read Becca Fitzpatrick's Hush Hush series. To this day I still recommend these books to adults and youngsters alike looking for great stories to spur on their love of reading! 

From there, as they might say, the rest is history. I have been reading on average a book a fortnight ever since - this year, since starting work as a bookseller for Waterstones, I am averaging one a week, if not more, as I have them at my fingertips, and have recommendations and new titles in front of me every day! But to finish with, I wanted to leave you with this; a girl is never too old for a fairy tale, and I often find myself flicking through the pages of The Grimm Tales when I am feeling down. Fairy tales will live on for longer than any of us, because they teach us that anything is possible, that we can achieve anything we set our minds to, if we just believe in ourselves, and of course, they remind us that the world is full of magic!

Keep reading, the world is a better place with books!

Work week...

Apologies for my lack of presence... work seemed to take over my life a little for the couple of weeks! Having gotten used to a cushy two day a week contract since January, my body rebelled at the idea of working for nine out of ten days and I have barely done anything other than work, eat and sleep! No joke! It sounds pathetic, I know, but four months is a long time for someone to fall into a routine. Throw in having to cope with life, trying hard to keep up with some writing goals, and my to-read pile, and I have scraped through and am still going at the end of it.

During this nine day stint, I finished off the Waterstone's cluster by working in both the Sheffield, Orchard Square branch, and the little shop in Chesterfield town centre :) I can now say that I have worked in all six stores on the cluster! The bus and train to Chesterfield was an experience and a half though, I'll tell ya... you don't half get used to the comforts of your own car! I also got to try my hand at a window display - check out my handy work!!

But anyway, with the work marathon over, I have had the entire weekend off - a first in a while! I had a lovely lie in yesterday morning, one which I believe to have been well deserved and made me feel so much better, then we went for a picnic in the park where we got to enjoy the glorious sunshine - and maybe end up with little pink cheeks!! Plus we got to play hide 'n' seek! No need to guess who the winner was (I'll give you a hint - it's the smallest one!)

Angry Jesters rounded off last night with the gig at The Ark, an ace night as always... many laughs were had all round.

And to top it off, Simon and I drove out to Cleethorpes beach in the early hours of the morning so that I could get some photographs of the sunrise over the sea for one of my book covers! Not random at all - and definitely not suggested! I have only just got up after making it to bed at half past six this morning... photos look great though, I can't wait to get started...

So, now I have the rest of today to attempt to be productive, then back to work tomorrow, but on a three day week! I have writing goals that I need to get back on top of as I have deadlines fast approaching and this week has thrown me right off! So, you know where to find me - I'm attached to the laptop!

Till next time...

Body Blitz

So I did a thing - and when I say a thing - I mean I did something ridiculous! In my wisdom, in a way that only a blonde can, I decided that I would try something new in order to get me motivated and on the move to try and lose a little bit of weight and tone up ready for the summer. I have a few events happening, including a recently booked holiday, so I thought it might be nice to feel and look a bit better!
I considered the whole jogging thing again - but in all honesty, I'm not very good at it... I can't run in the cold weather, I don't run very fast and I get lonely without someone to go with, and when you do have someone to go with it starts getting hard work organising it - especially as I work weekends and am free when everyone else is normally at work... Pain in the rear end right??

So, in true bookworm fashion, I had a nosey at the shelves at work and bought a book...

I bought Chloe Madeley's 4-Week Body Blitz! The theory was that it would give me a great boost and then I could keep going after that with the things that I had learned from the book...
Sounded like a great plan - I got it home, read through the intro and all the information at the beginning, then flipped through the exercise section straight to the recipes. Not quite what I'm used to, but I marked all the ones that I liked the sound of, and made a shopping list.

It was all going great - until I started the workouts on Day 1! It turns out that I am a lot less fit that I originally thought I was, which wasn't much anyway, I can tell you... I only completed half of the workout before I had to call it a day; before I actually did myself some damage - but I argued that it was better than what I'd done the day before - which was a whole load of nothing!!
By the end of the day I thought I was dying - too much too soon I think. The meals weren't bad though, and my other half cleared the plate too so it was still edible away from the dieting idea.

The next morning I pulled myself out of bed and got on with the workout for Day 2, proud that I was trying, despite aching everywhere!! I still didn't complete the entire thing, but I did more than the day before, and felt good for getting up and getting on with it. I discovered a few more meals that I liked, (this chicken and egg salad being my favouitie so far) and one I didn't and would not be trying again!
By the end of Day 2, I ached in a few more places, and my legs were barely able to hold me upright - but I was still trying - I even went to the pub and just drank water...

Day 3 - the workout was hard now that every part of me hurt, and I struggled to get through half of the workout, but achieved my goal of half way, and felt good for trying. More recipes and more empty plates - not a bad effort - though I was starting to crave something sugary... the small piece of grated chocolate on my breakfast just hadn't cut it.

This morning however - it all started to fall apart... My legs seem to have just about recovered, and my stomach and abs aren't screaming as much as they were yesterday, but I have a stiff neck and a bad shoulder... I didn't do my workout this morning, but did stick to the meal plan. Better than nothing right?? I have also left the car at home twice today and hit the pavement to nip out to the shops.

What have I learned from this brief encounter with physical exercise?? That I am not built for that kind of movement - and I should have stuck with the recommendations of friends; get out and about more! So, despite the niggling part of my brain that is telling me I'm a quitter - I am going to ditch the workout scheme and try it my way (bearing in mind that I do have a lot longer than 4 weeks to achieve my goals) and just stick with using some of the recipes from the book to keep healthy. I have plans for countryside walks, mountain scrambles and maybe some jogging now that the weather has warmed up some!

I will try to keep you posted - for a more up to date account of my attempts and actions feel free to follow me on Instagram where I post reasonably regularly - though not always about fitness... there are books - lots of book related posts!

Vanessa :)

Camp Nano Win!!

I did it!!! I achieved my 25,000 word goal - and I achieved it early!! Go me :) So, in true fashion, I obviously set myself an extra push didn't I?? Of course - I challenged myself to fit in an extra 5,000 words in the six remaining days! And guess what?? I did that too - despite taking an impromptu three day break and having to squeeze the last 2,500 words in today. I am very proud of myself.

So, first of all, let me track back to tell you what Camp Nano actually is - for all my non-writer readers (and maybe writers who have not yet found their way to NanNoWriMo) check out the link for a brief description, and to check out their Camp site, and then head on over to their mother site to see what all the fuss is about with NanNoWriMo! But basically, NaNoWriMo is National Novel Writing Month, which is in November every year, where writers all over the world, both indie and traditionally published, work their socks off to write 50,000 words in 30 days! Sounds a lot right, but honestly, it's not that bad if you're working on rough drafts and just getting words down on a page to edit later! Camp Nano is held in April and July and is exactly what it sounds - an online retreat for writer's to set their own goals and get a wriggle on with those work in progresses!
For me this time, it was finishing off the first draft of the second book in my new series due to launch next summer. I now have a nearly complete draft which I intend on finishing off this week and then printing to go through its first red pen edits! Exciting times...

Wanna see my certificate?? Of course you do!

Thanks for the support guys and girls - till next time x

First World Problems!

As a reader and now a bookseller, my addiction to books is maybe getting a little out of control. I say maybe, because to actually admit to it would mean that I agreed that there was a problem, and then would have to do something about it, like stop buying new ones, and we all know that's not how this works. So, it's not a full on problem yet, it's just becoming problematic. Also, as I have pointed out to my other half recently when he commented on the multiple piles of books that are occupying different parts of the bedroom floor, the main problem isn't the amount of books that I own, per say, but rather the lack of shelf space that I have to keep them on...

Let me break it down a little for you... When I lived at home with my mom and dad, I only had the small bedroom, and that was okay with me, however, it was pretty much all bookshelves. There was obviously my bed, which was only a small single due to the size of the room, and a chest of draws which I kept clothes and what not in. Other than that, there were two decent sized bookshelves, and two shelves on the wall! Doesn't sound like much? Well, you'd be surprised what I could fit in there, I'll tell ya.

The smaller of the two bookshelves sat behind my bed and had books on it that I liked to show off. You know the ones, series' where the books all match, my favourite authors, collections and pretty books, and of course, my multiple copies of books like Alice in Wonderland, and the Grimm Tales! The likes of Tiffany Reisz's entire publishing history, Kelley Armstrong's many different series and Nalini Singh's Guild Hunter Series took up residence on the shelves with the best views, and then there were the odd small trinket and book related ornament on there too!
The larger of the two shelves had double rows of books! The back row was books that I had read a long time ago and probably wouldn't read again, or books that I hadn't gotten around to reading yet, but weren't exactly high up on the to-read list either. Then the front rows were books that I had read and wanted to keep in case I'd read them again, and the books that were on my to-read pile, but weren't linked to a series that put them on the other shelf!
Then there were the shelves on the wall that just had small series or trilogies on to make the shelf look good, but wouldn't be too heavy and pull the shelf down from the wall. For example, my Twilight books looked great up there!

Now, let's bring things forward a few months - I moved in with Simon in January... I used moving (and packing) as a good reason to fettle my stash, and was very proud of myself when I nearly halved my collection at the time. As a Book Fairy, I found a way of recycling books that I had either read and would never read again, or had bought on impulse and would probably never get around to reading. I was brutal, and by the time I moved in with Simon, they fit great in the smaller space I had to shelve them.
I brought with me the larger of the two bookshelves from my bedroom, which is now in our room, and still has a double row of books. The back row are stacked on top of each other, and the front row are displayed. But that was where I came a cropper. There is a beautiful bookshelf downstairs in the living room - you know the type - bigger than me, wide and deep shelves... The only problem? I can't keep the best part of two thirds of my books on there because of their content. We have two young girls in the house and I don't want to be responsible for corrupting their tiny minds!! So downstairs in limited to children's books, and a selected few YA books that I have deemed appropriate for the older of the two, should she be interested enough to pick one up. So far they haven't really paid much attention to them, but the last thing I need is for them to come across Sylvia Day's Crossfire series for example!!

So the upstairs bookshelf is slowly overflowing! There is an ever-growing pile on the floor of new books I have bought from work, plus a read pile that is stacking up in front of the bookshelf because there is no space on it to put them!! What is a girl supposed to do??

I hear the answer clearly - I need another bookshelf!!! The next problem is where to put said new bookshelf though; oh the problems of a bookaholic are never ending!

(The piles in this photo are post sort out, when I tried to shelve them and tidy them up - but literally didn't have the room >>>)


I'll keep you posted on the new bookshelf - I'm going to go run it by the man of the house and see what initial reaction I get :)

V x

My must-read books!

Everyone has seen one of those lists - you know the one; 50 books to read before you die, top 100 books everyone should read in their life, the best books you never read... There are tons circulating at any one time, and invariably, they promote the same books! I bet you could list me ten of them without even having to think too hard - go on try it... Let me give you a hint, it will start with The Great Gatsby, followed by Catch 22 and Catcher in the Rye, there will be at least one George Orwell book on there, plus at least one of the Bronte sisters will appear. You get the gist?!

Well, after seeing Waterstones' 'Best books you have never read' post on their blog, I decided that I was going to write my own list of books that I think everyone should read - and guess what - they're not necessarily what you'd expect!

Here goes... they are in no particular order of readability, this is just a list of books that I think everyone should at least try to read in their life time. There are things to be learned from these, titles that everyone should own a copy of, and others that I believe are important to our personal development as human beings.

• Alice in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll - the story of the girl who fell down the rabbit hole, into a world of the strange and un-explainable. Carroll's tale is one of illogical ideas and a great example of literary nonsense, but tells the story of one brave, if not a little curious, young girl who learns about who she is as a person through her adventures in a strange and unknown world.

• The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time by Mark Haddon - a British mystery novel about a fifteen year old boy who discovers a murdered dog in the front yard of one of his neighbours. Although the book doesn't actually define the character's behavioural traits with label Christopher's condition is assumed to be Asperger's Syndrome or high-functioning Autism. Haddon uses Christopher's character to highlight what it means to be different, and that seeing the world around you in a different way to what others do, is not a bad thing. We can learn a lot about understanding those around us from this book, and I believe that all children aged 9-12 should read this book, and discuss what it means to them with an adult.

• The Book Thief by Markus Zusak - this historical novel, set during Nazi Germany, follows the story of young Liesel who discovers reading and writing as a form of escapism from the destructive world around her. Stuck between a lost childhood and the demands of a Nazi led town, Leisel finds power in books and starts to steal books that the Nazi party are wanting destroyed. The novel is narrated by Death, and from that, we get a look at how life can mean so much, despite how short it may be.

• Harry Potter Series by J K Rowling - the seven book series, plus the surrounding spin-offs, are a staple in every child's life. The world which Rowling created is one that will live on in generations to come, and the life lessons learned from each of the characters in the stories are ones that every individual will carry with them. For me, it was the lesson we learned from Severus Snape, the seemingly hostile Death Eater who was actually out to protect Harry the entire time. It didn't matter to him what people thought of him, or that he was constantly perceived as the bad guy, as long as the son of the woman he had loved was safe. He taught us that not all heroes wear capes, and that lesson has resonated in me since the moment I found out his dual nature!

• The Reason I Jump by Naoki Higashida - the stunning novel written by 13-year-old Naoki about his journey in life with a diagnosis for severe Autism Spectrum Disorder. Told through a question and answer format, Naoki tried to enable people to understand what it is like to live with Autism, and to show just how hard it can be to communicate. By reading this book, it helps you to understand, just a little, what life can be like for some families, and I believe that it makes people more likely to show compassion and empathy for those families, rather than the misunderstanding and assumed bad parenting that often occurs when misinformed people see these families out in public.

• Trumpet by Jackie Kay - a debut novel from a Scottish poet about the events after the death of fictional Jazz player Joss Moody. The novel takes place just after Joss' death, when it is revealed that he had in fact, been born female. The story follows the paths of several characters linked to Joss, including his wife, who was the only person who did know about Joss' hidden gender, and their adopted son, who did not know. The characters in the book all discuss how they knew Joss and the impact he'd had on their lives, all of which, by the end of the book, come to realise that despite the shock of the revelation, the fact that Joss had been born female wasn't important, and nor did it effect what they thought of him. Kay's novel battled identity, gender, race and grief alongside the love and relationships that shape a person's life. This book was one that I read at school, and truly changed how I viewed the world around me. Proving that no one really knows another person, despite what they may show to the world, everyone has a personal side to them that you may not know about. This book helps you to understand not to judge people, but to accept them for who they are.

• The Fault in our Stars by John Green - a story about Hazel Grace, a 16-year-old girl living with cancer, who meets 17-year-old Augusts Waters, an amputee at her support group. Green's story follows Hazel and Augustus through their relationship, where Augustus tries to fulfil one of Hazel's biggest dreams; to meet her favourite author. The book highlights the idea of living in the moment and doing the things that you want to do with your life without regret, because you never know just how little time you have left. Hazel and Augustus' story is heart-wrenching and tissue worthy, but one that everyone should read.

• To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee - (There had to be one you'd expect to see on here) This was one of those books that you dreaded having to read, knowing that it was coming up on your school syllabus. I read this for my GCSE English Literature course, and if I'm honest, hated every minute of it. However, it doesn't change the fact that I admired Lee and her story, due to the impact it had on its readers. TKAM is a classic, and Scout is a character that is still talked about today. The book highlighted racial inequality and issues surrounding race and cultural differences, but did so in a way that empowered readers to want to change with it. 

• Grimms' Fairy Tales by Jacob and Wilhem Grimm - Now there are so many adaptions and rewrites of the popular fairy tales, and which ones you read don't really matter. But I do believe that every child should have fairy tales read to them, and in a way, explained to them, as they all have a lesson to be learned from them. Once we are adults, I think that we should all reread those fairy tales, as our developed mind can see the things we couldn't see in them when we were children. Yes, you can learn from them. Pass on that wisdom to the younger generations, and see what a difference it can make when we learn to accept others for who they are, to not speak to strangers or divert from the path, but as an adult, understand that Prince Charming isn't going to pop around the corner when you're least expecting it, and that you aren't a Princess who will get everything handed to her in life. We work for what we achieve, and that is the message to pass on to our children.

Well, I hope you made it to the end - I know it went on for a while, but I also hope that you go out and look for at least one of the books on this list after reading it. Just one that you haven't read before, maybe never even heard of before. Go ahead and buy it, read it, and then pass it on to someone else. Spread the word on the books that you feel people should read and why. Don't be afraid to stand up and be counted as a book nerd. We will accept you. 

All books are linked to Waterstones' website where you can purchase your copy today! You can by all means find them elsewhere, just remember that the bookshops won't be around forever if you go to places like Amazon all the time!! :)

Vanessa x